CAKE

So looks like overnight guy ROb and i are going to the Cake concert together...does this mean its a second date? I'm confused. I guess we'll see dec 16th....

So i had this dream the other day. I have this huge crush on the security guy at my job. Not like a i want to have your babies crush, but a omg your hot kinda crush. SO anyways, i have this dream that 3 of my best friends that work there, the security guy, me, my best friend, and the overnight guy Rob(who yes, i DO want to have his babies one day and i am getting closer to it!=) Anyways, let me get back on track. I had this dream that we were all taking a night class together. Nothing weird, just all of us sitting in a classroom, and then leaving at the end of class. So, i was telling one of the girls who was in my dream about it, and who comes walking around the corner? The security guy! He heard me say, " and matt was in it too" to the girl and he was all like what was i in? So then she says, oh sarahs dreaming of you matt. So then i had to explain the dream to him, and what does he say? " so was i good?" with a smirk on his face and then started laughing. !!!!

So yeah, i was embarrassed. SO, now everytime he sees me he says, so uh sarah, hows that english class going? with a smirk on his face like hes thinking" haha, shes dreaming of having sex with me!" because he totally didnt believe the whole school thing, which was actually what the dream was. That happened on tuesday.

SO , today what does he(security guy) do? A manager(that we are all clsoe with(shes hilarious!), me, him, the overnight guy, and 2 other employees are in the breakroom, and he says, " so sarah, hows that english class going?" and starts laughing. SO then i have to explain my dream, and they all BUST up laughing, including overnight guy Rob. My manager said, " sarah, you know i will have to tease you about this everyday now. You know i will never letyou forget it." Then, and i know this part does look a little suspicious, she comes up to me privatly and says," so is that why you wanted to know if he had a girlfriend when you called a couple weeks ago?" i tried to deny it, but its too late. Sigh...i hope people understood this. And this may not seem too embarrassing to anyone, but my face was red the whole time, esp if you know me and what i am like.

On a bright side, i did talk to overnight guy and we talked about upcoming concerts that we are going to go to.=)

Happy thanksgiving everyone! I love you all!

thanksgiving

i just wanted to say thank you to everyone i am friends with that puts up with me.=) I am very thankful for my family, my great friends, both new and old, and all that i take for granted. I take way too much for granted in my life. For example. I go to college and i complain about schoolwork. I'm sure there are TONS of people who would love to go to school and cant. ANother? I am sitting here typing on my own computer listening to music that i bought. I know there are toms of people that cant afford computers.
I am thankful that i like the people i work with, and all of the employees i work with. Its awesome there.

I am thankful for my family so much. My nephew especially. What would i do without him here. He brightens my day just by saying hi.

My best friend. We've been best friends for 23 years now(yes, i am 23. We were neighbors, our moms best friends, older sisters best friends, dads best friends) and we stayed friends all this time without having a huge fight or difference. She gives me the best advice ever.

I am thankful for all my bte friends,too. Sometimes i talk(post) more frequently on the bte board with people more than i get to with my friends here in stl.

Mostly i am thankful just to be alive and free.

stolen quiz

I AM: saraH
I WANT: to stay happy forever
I HAVE: a dog, and lots more other things im sure i dont need.
I WISH: i had it all figured out
I HATE: waking up early
I MISS: Being a kid.
I FEAR: being alone for the rest of my life.
I HEAR: the buzz of my computer and the keys typing because i have a cheap, loud keyboard.
I SEARCH: for a place to sleep.
I WONDER: what my kids will look like.
I REGRET: nothing other than credit cards.
I LOVE: almost everything
I ACHE: In my chest. i have a chest cold.:(
I ALWAYS: am happy
I AM NOT: mean
I DANCE: with my nephew and he loves it!
I SING: at work all the time. To weird songs nobody knows.
I CRY: when i am sick and a customer at work yells at me for not staying home and shell eb upset if i make her sick..
I AM NOT ALWAYS: cheerful in the AM.
I WRITE: everyday. for a living.hopefully.
I WIN: at scratch offs.
I LOSE: In pleasing my mother.
I CONFUSE: song lyrics. all the time.
I NEED: To study more
I SHOULD: Quit playing on the computer and sleep.
yes or no...
You keep a diary: yes
You like to cook: yes.
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yes.
You're in love: maybe
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: Yes.
You bite your fingernails: yesYou believe in love: Yes.absolutely!
Who is/are...?
The prettiest female you know: Stacy( my friend) 5'11, 129 lbs, just pretty.
The weirdest person you know: sorry to say but its me.=)
The loudest person you Know: my nephew
The sexiest person you Know: rob(overnight guy) because hes mysterious.
Your close friends: Too many to list on here.
The person that knows the most about you: my best friend of 23 years dawn.
Your Crush? robMost boring teacher? my math teacher
What is...?
Your most overused phrase on IM: =)
Your best feature: my eyes and how i am always happy.
Do You...?
Take a shower everyday: Most every day.
Have a(any) crush(es): Yeah. I have a few.
Think you know you've been in love: nope
Want to get married: Yes.
Have any tattoos/where?: yep, 2. shoulder and backPiercings/where?: no
Get along with your parents: Very much so.
WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK Of:
Ryan: white trash
Rob: overnight guy
Drew: cousins fiancee
Stephanie: a dumb blond i know.
Heather: Midori! and my manager. Shes tall-6'0 before heels.
Aaron: sisters first boyfriend.
Amy: my co-supervisor.
Will: Smith
Paul: Rudd(from clueless=)
Eve: Adam and...
John: my old manager at steak and shake
Laura: ex coworkerAlex: ?
Justin: Timberlake. Ricky: martin
Jacob: Jakob. Dylan. Hottest man EVER!
Jack: off(sorry!)
SIGN: libra
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark brown almost black
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: same as above
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: st.louis!
FAVORITES
NUMBER: 3
COLOR: orange
DAY: Saturday
MONTH: October
SONG: one headlight, the wallflowers
FOOD: chicago style hot dogs
SEASON: spring
SPORT: hockey
DRINK: iced tea
VEGGIE: green beans
PREFERENCES
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? umm...next question!
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Milk Chocolate VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED?
yes
HELPED SOMEONE? I'm sure I did.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes. cookies=)
GOTTEN SICK? not throwing up, but i have a wicked cold! Damn bte!
GONE TO THE MOVIES? yes! I
OUT FOR DINNER? Not dinner but I did for lunch.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Yes. I said it to my mom
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No.
TALKED TO AN EX? No.
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Just this one.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? No.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Yes.
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes. HUGGED SOMEONE? yes, i LOVE my nephew!
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No.
Would You Ever...
Eat a bug? no
Bungee jump? no
Hang glide? no
Kill someone? no
Have sex with someone you don't love? i have before. didnt like it.
Kiss someone of the same sex? no
Have sex with someone of the same sex? no.
Parachute from a plane? Probably.
Walk on hot coals? no
Go out with someone for their looks?sure
For their reputation? If it was a good reputation then I probably would.
e a vegetarian? nope, love the cow too much.
Wear plaid with stripes? no.
IM a stranger? Sure.
Sing karaoke? Only when EXTREMELY intoxicated.
Get drunk off your ass? definitely!
Shoplift? who knows?
Run a red light? yes
Star in a porn video? Nope.
Dye your hair blue? Yeah.
Be on Survivor? no
Wear makeup in public? yes
NOT wear makeup in public? yes
Cheat on a test? No
Make someone cry? i try not to
Call your math teacher a motherfucker? i did@!
Kick a baby? No
Date someone more than ten years older than you? yes! ROb is 11!
Cuss out a priest? No
Take a job as a janitor? yes.
Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? yep
Stay up all through the night? Sure.
Drink straight espresso? no no no

tired so tired

So i have a job interview tomorrow for Saks 5th Ave(http://www.saksfifthavenue.com) I am likely to get the job. An old manager that used to work at kohls with me is a manager there, and when i told her i was looking to apply to a new job she was all happy and giddy. And i got called for an interview 2 days after i turned the application in. SO why am i awake at almost 3am when i should be sleeping? The interview is at 12 tomorrow afternoon, and i still have to iron my clothes, buy stockings, and go to class before it. That means getting up at like 8. Plus i have to look nice and not tired. I dont know, i guess I am nervous.
I also feel incredibly guilty about leaving Kohls. The day after i turned in my application two of the managers there were in the office, and i was saying bye to them, and they both said how great a job i did up front, i am always dependable and to a great job, and although i may not hear it enough, i do a great job and they are really proud of me. They even said they couldnt handle my job. So, that made it worse. What i might do is if i am hired at saks, then go to my managers there and be like, i was hired there, i love it here, i really dont want to leave, but i dont make enough here...and see what they say. Hopefully it is sarah, please stay. We love you. We will give you a raise to match them. Or, they could say, im sorry you feel that way, and im sorry you are leaving. Well miss you. Hopefully its the first.

On a different note, i watched the stepford wives today. It was a great movie! Not something i would have paid for, but a great one to rent.
Anyways, i have to get to bed. Be good while i am sleeping World.
Night.

Soy un perdeor.....

wow. So its been awhile since i last posted. I think it is just because i have been busy with other things lately I.E. school and work and now i never have the time to write just for myself, which i love to do. I mean, isnt that why i am going into journalism in the first place?
So yeah, i am failing my math class. Not a good thing. That means i will have to take it again next semester, again prolonging my graduation. Why oh why couldnt i be a math whiz? That would simplify my life right now. Well, maybe. I guess i can say that now, but if it were true, then something else would be ailing me, and who doesn't hate math? So I guess thats how i will stay.

On the boy front, things are going a little better with Rob. And thats all i have to say about that.=)

I am sick right now. Like cold sick. Today all i have been doing is sneezing, coughing, and more coughing and sneezing. Hopefully it goes away soon. I have an interview on tuesday for a new job, so i need to be on top of things.

i'll be cool like mary catherine gallagher and use a song(instead of a tv movie of the week) to display my feelings.

Beck - Loser Lyrics

In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey
butane in my veins so i'm out to cut the junkie
with the plastic eyeballs
spray paint the vegetables
dog food stalls with the beefcake pantyhose
kill the headlights and put it in neutral
stock car flamin' with a loser and the cruise control
baby's in Reno with the vitamin D
got a couple of couches sleep on the love seat
someone keeps sayin' I'm insane to complain about
a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
don't believe everything that you breathe
you get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
so shave your face with some mace in the dark
savin' all your food stamps and burnin' down the trailer park
(yo cut it)
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
(double-barrel buckshot)
Soy un perdedor i'm a loser baby,so why don't you kill me?
Forces of evil in a bozo nightmare
banned all the music with a phony gas chamber
'cuz one's got a weasel and the other's got a flag
one's got on the pole shove the other in a bag
with the rerun shows and the cocaine nose job
the daytime crap with the folksinger slop
he hung himself with a guitar string
slap the turkey neck and it's hangin' on a pigeon wing
you can't write if you can't relate
trade the cash for the beef for the body for the hate
and my time is a piece of wax
fallin' on a termite who's chokin' on the splinters
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
(get crazy with the cheeze whiz)
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
(drive-by body pierce)
(yo bring it on down)
soooooooyy....
(I'm a driver I'm a winner things are gonna change I can feel
it)
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
(I can't believe you)
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
[repeat]
(Sprechen sie Deutches, baby)
Soy un perdedor I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me?
(Know what I'm sayin'?)